i spend a lot of my time at home just holding henry and staring at him. i recognize that this could be bad for his development, maybe detrimental, but i can't help it. i am a GAWKER when it comes to this little PERSON. more and more, he's looking like eric to me. his laugh grows bigger every day, and his smile. ugh. this kid's smile could end wars.
why would that be bad for him? i think it's the best thing you can give him. kelly, today my guy turns seven. i can't believe i've been doing this for seven years. it still feels really new and hard and scary. i've made so many mistakes with simon. i love him so fiercely, but there is also this underlying current of apology in all my feelings towards him, just because he is my front runner, my pioneer, with whom i have been tested and tried. i don't really subscribe to a specific view or school of parenting. i don't know if this is because i am wise or lazy or indecisive. i do feel sure about something, though, after these seven years. and it's this: time spent sitting quietly with your child is never wasted. there are so many things pulling at your attention all the time, for you to be able to just sit and admire him, well.... to me that makes you supermom already. i'm so serious. don't ever underestimate the value and power of staying IN THE MOMENT with your child. right now it seems to come naturally to you, so embrace that, be thankful for that strength, and try to hang on to it. don't ever apologize for it. i love you guys so much. it was great to see you in person the other day. he is soooo beautiful. come over soon!
ReplyDelete:) we need to set up a time ASAP. i feel like the weeks are just FLEETING lately. so much to do! i was thinking, i have spring break coming up: April 2nd-12th! We could do LUNCH with the boys! OR GO TO THE ZOOOOOOOOOO!!!! What do you think?
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